Dad was always there, in every sense of the word. I miss his presence at every happy occasion since he passed. The heart ache is overwhelming, these are happy times that should be shared with him, instead we smile and cover the deep feeling of loss inside. On 13/08/08 we had the first addition to the family since Dad passed away, another grandson for dad, a son for Claire and Chris. This fantastic happy time is tinged in an unspoken sorrow for his daughters. Dad would have been so proud of Claire and Chris, he always said he wanted them to have another child after Claire had Alex. Dad never liked the idea of any child growing up without brothers and sisters. That's just like Dad, he loved being with his family. Now Dad has 4 grandchildren, it breaks my heart to think that this time, he will never have the chance to meet the latest family member. He will never touch him, hold him, kiss him, and love him. In turn, the baby will never know what a fantastic granddad he's got. I'm certain Claire and Chris will always let him know just what he missed out on. It's time to welcome Harrison Howard Barley into the family and enjoy happy times with him whilst learning to live with the feeling of missing his granddad. Such a happy occasion forever tainted with sadness.